Wednesday, June 30, 2010
My greatest fear...
You being not happy...


Jacks wrote @ 10:47 PM


Feel like my blog gonna die off by me soon.
No interesting things to post about.

Except for my wallet releasing money around.
Damn. Spending way too fast. Broking soon.

Four letter which has unexplainable meaning.
Love is such that simple four letter word.
Its inside. That special feeling.
Makes the world go crazy.
It is worth my time.


Jacks wrote @ 1:28 AM

Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Today sch was fine.
Spending money like water.
And still continuing to spend spend spend.
If anyone can help me control the amount I spend.
I will be grateful man... -.-

After knowing what happened.
I dare not say I really understand you.
But the very least I won't misunderstand you.

Don't go around hiding things from me.
Unless I am really so untrustworthy.
I wanna know. Good and bad...

Hope you can be real happy.
Cause only then I can feel it too... ><



Jacks wrote @ 1:11 AM

Monday, June 28, 2010
Mixed emotions.
Feeling so bad and moody. Not good. At all.

Nevertheless...
Still had fun at katong.
Lots fun at two man fat with co.

Used to melt me like chocolate.
I dunno everything. Can't judge or say.
Even though I already decided on my decision.

This is bad. Got blurred out.
Wonder. Noticed I am more to old times side...



Jacks wrote @ 1:17 AM

Saturday, June 26, 2010
Mini post.
Played bball.
High fatigue level.

Make me worry for a day.
Would tell me your back right...
Wanna angry but can't do it.
Hais hey recover fast fast.
Make me more worry only... ><



Jacks wrote @ 10:51 PM


Human destroys Terra.
Everyone's mind is the same.
It always come to me me and me.
Disgusting creatures crawling around.
Stop showing me how gross this world is.
And how true human beings really can behave.

Thought over it for you.
This last day...
I got how you feel.
And it is definitely not happy.
Feel like just wanna be alone quiet.
I dun know. I not sure. I just feel this way.
Its so complicated. I guess I know what to do.

I will not be happy with you being sad. Simple as that.
If you don't play a part. It won't work out. Everyone know.
Jackson already decided. No matter what happen. I be here for you.



Jacks wrote @ 2:20 AM

Friday, June 25, 2010
Short post.
Today stayed at home.
Had too much metal rock songs.
Fuck exhausted...

One and half day coming soon...
No matter what happen.
I am and will wait.
Will be here.

Mood being unstable... ><



Jacks wrote @ 2:17 AM

Thursday, June 24, 2010
Back from Kelong in Malaysia. Fun three days.
Actually life over there ain't that bad afterall.
Sleep. Eat. Drink. Fish. Slack. Gamble. ^^

Repeating day cycle.
But it's very fun with friends around.
Get to meet and know lots of new awesome friends.
They are all very nice ah beng and very nice scary people.
Just they pin me down to pluck cut my toe nail out... FUCK YES. -.-lll

So fishing there was interesting. Most of time slack.
Manage to caught six fish. I sucks I know.
One big big fish. Five small small fish.
No proof to show at all.
Lol. My memories. ^^

Three days only.
It is getting shorter.
Be back in around sixty hours.
Please you better get some sleep.
Thinking your standard pattern.
Should be on bed can't sleep.

Missing you.


Jacks wrote @ 12:30 AM

Sunday, June 20, 2010
It's the sixth day begone!
Why does it feel so!...
Long. But short...

Time now is 7am...
Proud that bro's bbq is over.
And I am still alive and blogging.
After drinking and playing fooling around.

Blogging cause I am leaving to Kelong next day.
Currently now is Sunday. Leaving in Monday.
I am so very not ready to leave... Somehow.
Now i understand how you feel. I think.
It is purely just not ready at all.
Not wanting to leave anyone.
And feel like backing out.
Nothing else.

So freaking tired now. I gonna sleep.
Not yet pack for my 3 days 2 nights.
This completely sucks. Haiz. Ttm...
Not packed. Not ready. No mood.

JTNX Miss JSAP.
JTNX Misses JSAP.
JTNX is Missing JSAP.
JTNX has Missed JSAP.
How about JSAP to JTNX?...



Jacks wrote @ 7:09 AM

Saturday, June 19, 2010
Today sucks. Somehow... -_-lll...

Till I called you. ^^
Tried my luck. Hehe. ^^
To my surprise. It worked! ^^

So damn happy. That you are happy. ^^
Remembered the whole short two mins conversation. ^^
So much to tell you. So little time. Shall wait. It is worth it! ^^
Fifth day crossed out...

Happy for myself. Cause the days are getting closer... ><
Sad for yourself. Cause the days are getting closer... ><
It's hard when you got two shoes to think for... ><

Miss you more after calling. Haiz... ><
No mood sleep. Will try. Night!... ><



Jacks wrote @ 1:29 AM

Friday, June 18, 2010
The trip ran damn smoothly and funly.
Even though didn't buy any jacket.
Cause can't find any got feel for.
Ate lots lots tons tons tons.
And slept with Shaun.
It was worth it.

Back from Malaysia!
Am still happy idiot asshole.
So when you back you know I didn't emo.

Noobass!...
Fourth day poop!...
Wanna scold you so badly...
Got important things to tell you...
Miss your sweetness. Come back soon...

It is that when some things are lost or missing.
That will really got someone to miss to the maximum.


Jacks wrote @ 12:47 AM

Tuesday, June 15, 2010
A fun summary and short post of today.
Bball match with Tms secondary. Won.
Nothing much for today then.
Said it will be a short post. ^^

Tomorrow Malaysia with Shaun Danah Guanan.
Gonna be a blast man! Jacket jacket and more jacket!
Two jacket should be enough. No?! I will make it three. Hehe!
Overnight with Shaun. Gonna drink till faint. Wahahaha!
Next post will be when I back in Singapore. I guess. ^^

Second day ended already.
Miss scolding you Asshole! Miss randomly call.
Miss texting good morning. Miss texting goodnight. ^^

It's 10pm and goodnight! ^^



Jacks wrote @ 8:52 PM


It's 12.30am now.
After this post I will sleep.
I wanna call you so badly. Hear your voice... Haiz!
Sorry I am the one that caused you to be sad. (chatbox)
Didn't realised that until now. Should have told me noobass!

This morning. Brought ingredients at Bedok.
Then went to make ehem. DIY okay. With a chief!
Seriously super damn shag and tired.
However perseverance pays off.

First time in my entire life I did this sort of things.
For your information. I can't even cook maggi mee.
Bet my kitchen will be burn to crispy I guess.
Thanks to my chief that clearly instruct me.
Well hey! You the first person to taste.

To be honest. I didn't want to go at first.
I was very. Scare. Afraid. Terrified.
That I can't hold myself. You are going off holiday.
That I won't see you for 12 days. Is so short and long.
That why I never say anything much. Cause you know...
Still I am happy. Even though a bit crazy.
Extreme happy to see golden silver you know what.
Extreme happy that the ehem I prepared for half day work.

Love you so much I can do anything to hear your laughter.
You had my heart. At least for the most part...

Okay now it's 1am. Goodnight viewers of Jackson's blog!
First day past. Missing you already...



Jacks wrote @ 12:31 AM

Monday, June 14, 2010
Today was really loved by me.
How I wish time can stop sometime.
Because i was simply just overly too happy.
I going to miss you. That's for sure. It is normal.
Words just can't describe how I feel.
Because I am too happy! ^^

Hey! Someone. Hope you like what you get.
Treat golden de with care okay! It is precious.
Of course the silver also must treat it properly!
And and and and. You are going back for a holiday.
Extremely happy I am for you now. Only you know.
Still take care of yourself. A lot of people care for you ya.
Drink more water okay. The weather there is hotter.
Smile happy more and behave cute and pretty for.
Dare use vulgar. Show middle finger. I punch you.
Listen when parents talk okay. Don't be so rude.
Not making your parents worrying for you huh.
Always sleep like a pig like you used to last.
Don't worry too much things in singapore.
Eat more local food there!
See you in 12 days.
Stay strong! ^^

Hey! I see your brother in law.
The one you featured in you know.
Omgosh! He is damn sweet larh can.
Still piggy back sial. He gonna be my idol.
A role model for me to follow. Yes! Hahahaha! ^^

One last thing. It is possible.
For me to really be that lucky stranger.
If you remember what you say during that night. ^^

I will be here for you.
Always here thinking of you.
No matter when and where you are.
Do the same for me okay. If you feel like it. ^^
<3.



Jacks wrote @ 3:41 AM

Friday, June 11, 2010
Thought over it. I am happy! ^^
No more mood swing. ^^
Too happy. ^^

Even when you leave. ^^
I will keep staying happy for sure. ^^
Because deep down I know you will be happy. ^^

But don't ever doubt or forget. ^^
You will always be the reason behind why I am happy. ^^



Jacks wrote @ 11:50 PM


the least i can do now.
contain myself.

have blogged and feel better.
goodnight people.



Jacks wrote @ 2:57 AM


after that night past. everything change. =D
i was so happy to the maximum. all the way up. =D
so happy that am scare happiness will escape from me. =C
guess. it is happening. my fear is really happening. i am scare. =C
but i will remain strong. at least toward you. i will be fine. i have to. =D

super mood swinging like crazy. =(
keep trying to maintain it to happy. =)
however i fail miserably terribly. =(

don't know feel damn fucking sad. =C
feel happy that wad i dun wan to happen happen. =)
then again remembered that night how I feel. =(
it is so fucking selfish of myself. blanked out. stoned out. =C
think too much. am too weak myself. have to be stronger. =)

this holiday feel so worst. i got freak out. up and down. =C
guess this what happen when highest point drop to the lowest point. =C
and congrats jackson. your holiday day one starts today. yay! =D
and it just so happen to be at it lowest point. too bad. =C

notice that after i do one thing. more than one thing get affected. =C
and it was out of my fucking view. am so paranoid i can't sleep. =(
i not gonna move or go anyway. my heart is staying waiting here. =D
think no matter how bad it is. i be able to get back up. =)
it is so difficult to contain two sets of emotions. =(
but that's what i do. in order not to hurt you. =D

hah the one who set me high was the one who set me low back. =)
so after who knows it would be set high again some time. =D
bet i must be laughed at like some retard. =)
this is life. welcome to life. =D

When your back. I will be fine. =D
Alive and kicking. Love for you never change. =D



Jacks wrote @ 2:13 AM

Wednesday, June 9, 2010
A day can change so much.
Now my heart will never change.



Jacks wrote @ 1:42 AM

Sunday, June 6, 2010
ふくむ？！
i am but you had no idea.

today amazing sunday.
had a great day in house today.
rotting like some banana without skin.

got so much i wanna blurt out.
you always think your right.

i keep thinking thinking.
but meaningless.
guess one day.

there are always two side of things.
but u know sometimes.
it could be one.
just one.
one.


Jacks wrote @ 9:26 PM

Saturday, June 5, 2010
how. what. when. where. why.
i cant answer any of that...
all i know is. my heart is with you.
it is yours until the day i die.
dunno wad to do to fix everything.
wanna run but it is painful.
so many people around you.
with me it is just another one.
haha i just will not give up.
swear i be there when u need someone.
and i be there when u dun need anyone.
maybe it is my wishful thinking...
but it is my true heart i swear.
lol! dream can be stupid and lovely.
if i am random. i am too random. weird.
fuck serious and too serious i am. how.
what should i do... rely on myself.
can't balance... ^^



Jacks wrote @ 2:24 AM

Friday, June 4, 2010
Being hit back to square one.
Hmm... Getting used to polytechnic.
Manage to catch up with all of my work.
Even better. I was ahead of my coursemate.
Hopefully I can get good grades for my assignment.

Now. Peaceful for me. Super.
I miss the past. Deadly memories.
Time is pasting way too fast.

It's June.
Few more gathering.
People around will change.
Next year chai chee will merge.
I will have more assignment to work.
Gonna to have money costly oversea trips.

It's like a single half second blink.
And all the promises turn to empty.
All the memories turned grey in colour.

From close friends to strangers.
Making me confused. All over again.


Jacks wrote @ 2:57 AM

Tuesday, June 1, 2010
i promise me to sleep at 10pm today.
and yet i broke my own promise.
feeling so freaking exhausted.
can't bring myself to sleep at all.
because my mind is all about you.
tons of blank thoughts flying around me.
so worry when i am not tired i think of you more.

what should i do now.
sign. haiz. hais.



Jacks wrote @ 11:11 PM



くたばれふふ。だいきらい。_()_


Jacks wrote @ 1:55 AM