Friday, June 11, 2010
after that night past. everything change. =Di was so happy to the maximum. all the way up. =Dso happy that am scare happiness will escape from me. =Cguess. it is happening. my fear is really happening. i am scare. =Cbut i will remain strong. at least toward you. i will be fine. i have to. =Dsuper mood swinging like crazy. =(
keep trying to maintain it to happy. =)however i fail miserably terribly. =(don't know feel damn fucking sad. =Cfeel happy that wad i dun wan to happen happen. =)then again remembered that night how I feel. =(it is so fucking selfish of myself. blanked out. stoned out. =Cthink too much. am too weak myself. have to be stronger. =)this holiday feel so worst. i got freak out. up and down. =Cguess this what happen when highest point drop to the lowest point. =C
and congrats jackson. your holiday day one starts today. yay! =D
and it just so happen to be at it lowest point. too bad. =Cnotice that after i do one thing. more than one thing get affected. =Cand it was out of my fucking view. am so paranoid i can't sleep. =(i not gonna move or go anyway. my heart is staying waiting here. =Dthink no matter how bad it is. i be able to get back up. =)it is so difficult to contain two sets of emotions. =(
but that's what i do. in order not to hurt you. =Dhah the one who set me high was the one who set me low back. =)so after who knows it would be set high again some time. =Dbet i must be laughed at like some retard. =)this is life. welcome to life. =D
When your back. I will be fine. =D
Alive and kicking. Love for you never change. =D
Jacks wrote @ 2:13 AM
